Friday, October 29, 2004
I m utterly shocked by his death as his health condition his better us as hes not on wheelchair despite his age his name is freman. Too bad i haven noe him well to call him my bro, so sad tat he die b4 i becum gd frens wif him. I spoke to him 3 mths ago jus a few days b4 NYP orientation. Yet hes dead now y muz godofdeath do his job again i hate him. But godofdeath isnt tat cruel aft all, if we see death frm a diff view. "Death is a release frm sufferings, but leavin the loved ones in pain." Maybe aft all hes doin a kind deed to the dead, but ppl misinterpret it as an evil deed. Haiz.................................. Y MUZ HE DIE SO YOUNG WHEN HE HAVEN EXPERIENCE HOW FUN POLY IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe i shld do sth abt my personal life n not let her disappear frm my life b4 i let her noe abt my feelins. But i lack the courage to do so cos of my stupid F***ING (sry i used tat word cos i hate the F***ING illness)DMD as i tink i might b burden to her or she might not tok to mi anymore. ARHHHHHHHH i m stuck in a dilema i tink jus use hints rather dan jus go head on wif my feelins. muz slp liao
posted at 1:35 pm
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Wat is the Characteristic of Mi tis scorpio?
I am writin this cos i felt v bore studyin the whole day. As ppl tat noe mi well will say i m v cheerful n noisy. But when i m at home i m v quiet as i feel lonely easily. Or i will b doin my things quietly n dun like ppl to look at wat i m doin cos it affects my tinkin process. If i m alone in the hse i will start tinkin of wat to write or my frens n all my mistakes. So i tink i m leadin v diff life in my hse n outside where my family duno wats i m doin. Overall my mood change v fast at home in nite as my mind start to become active wif inspirations n i will start composin my stuffs. Writin all my feelins dw enable mi to see wat i m feelin n remind mi of wat i shldnt b doin. Most importantly let mi do some soul searchin n release all my feelins. But lately i m missin my sec sch v badly as its been a yr since we last saw each other. And today two of classmates bday they r oso scorpio same as mi.
As i noe so far abt scorpio r said to be : V secretive (i m abit); Cold towards (not mi); Passionate abt everything they like(yeah i m); Loves revenge(i onli tink abt it but i nv do it); Quite interestin to b wif(i v borin one).
Some of my personal views: I feel tat i m a v emotional person sumtimes; I m gettin rid my selfishness; Started to care more for others; Becoming kinder day by day;
I have met 6 scorpios so far
posted at 9:20 am
Sunday, October 24, 2004
As the title suggests i teach someone java for the first time quite nervous as i scare i might teach wrong. Luckily Tiffany(can type Tiffi nxt time cos its shorter) didnt ask mi too much qn on friday phew if not i might feel the stress, Thx for not makin it too hard mi. After abt 1hr 30mins of teachin her n Suet Ting java i find v gd for mi as it really force mi to question my understandin of java. So thx to them for helpin mi revise my java. I went home halfdead slp in the car. Btw is my java paper wif u cos i cant find it today. So i jus revise my 1106 quite borin cos all dead facts.Anyway i still studied cos i want to get a A for it. I studied aft i had my hair cut till v short feel so gd wif short hair. I studied from 3 to 7 wif jay song blastin like mad in the background so tired. Dan go msn to find ppl to crap i found someone my fren kevin who i haven seen for 1 mth miss him lots i not gay k. Anyway i almost faint usin my stupid com it hang like mad until i cant read my mail but i still read one b4 it hang. Its java again from i tink no nid to say rite Tiffi lor she v anxious abt java. I want to reply the mail but my com lazy to work it hang on mi. So i carry on my crap wif fren. Until she came online n start bombardin mi wif all her java qns. Some v ez tat i ans them ezliy but some v hard until i got to tell her i duno so throw face leh. But she v naughty keep on disturb mi while i m tinkin of ans dan use a word tat have tat resounding sinister laughter Muhaha............................ so creepy but i laugh like tat sometimes when i con ppl. so bad rite. But nvm i hope i manage to ans her qns n she can pass her java paper.
Phrase 4 2day: Questions posed for us force us to question ourselves
posted at 2:56 pm
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Life of a DMD person
Morning
Every morning lay in bed waiting to be transfer onto the wheelchair. Then everything needed for my morning rise is laid out properly awaiting for me. My breakfast is prepared by my parents and everything they will see to it. Although it sound nice having everything done for you. But I don’t want any of this treatment I prefer to do everything by myself. Than I will go to the void deck to wait for my ride and again to be transfer to car seat so much carrying it sucks you know. My mother will drive me to school which is Nanyang Polytechnic.
School
I study IT in school where I get to meet a lot of friends who helped me greatly. They help me to take my things like books, buy lunch and even help me wash my urinal. We had a wonderful time even though we knew each others for 2 months only. And I had troubled them for two months already I feel bad about it. I do not know how to repay their kindness. With them around my life seem very vibrant as I spend most of my time with them. After a whole day of fun its time for me to say goodbye I always look forward to the next day when I get to meet them again. If anyone asks me if I had ever like any girls, I think till now there are two only. But I do not want to have relationships with any of them. As I think I will be a burden to them rather than making them happy. So for me friends are enough already. I think friends are people that I would not forget for my whole life.
Home
I get home very tired although I do not show it in school. As I do not want people to see me tired as it is very ugly. I will take my dinner quietly if I am very tired or else I talk about my school. And all my friends will all start appearing in my head maybe people will think I am crazy. I will turn on the computer with my parents help hate this treatment. I will login my internet chatting account which is MSN messenger and start finding friends to talk to as I find it difficult to stop talking. I will chat until my household want to sleep even though I do not want to sleep I still had to sleep.
Sleep
As I need someone to transfer me to bed. So I am learning to sleep on my wheelchair so that I can sleep anytime and anywhere I want too bad I do not know. So I lay in my bad staring at the ceiling while thinking of meaningful phrases and my friends think I am mad. Then my eyes will close slowly with all the thoughts in my head. That is why I had so many odd dreams about phrases flashing in front of me. Sometimes I dream of my friends during my sleep. And that I am cure of this illness and I get to pursuit my dreams all this seem so real that I wish I will dream on forever. My tears are dropping at this point of time so old still cry so stupid. How I wish all my dreams will be fulfill someday.
posted at 8:31 pm
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Today i had a day which i m quite confused abt today as usual i m quite blur sometimes. Cos i m used to wakin up at 6 on tuesday. However i still went to sch at a later time to meet my frens: Fad Cavin Leon Xav Dina Alex Ice Rain & Xuan in sch for self revision the library is so pack jus like Food Junction during lunchtime. Anyway I am listening to my fav song its jay zhou "ye hui mei" album v nice i think Tiffany & Rain shld agree wif mi. To tok abt his album abit the first song is Yi Fu Zhi Ming the song melody v nice its abt a son who muz take revenge for his father who is kill by some gangster i tink. Now to tok abt the song i love the most is Qing Tian it start wif the slow strummin of the guitar v nice its abt a relationship tat started in the summer but i like the Music Video the most as it uses the pic of diff objects to form the word "I love U" i tink. I been tinkin who is so creative to tot of tat. Too bad i m single now nobody to try on lol.
Enuff of all this love is in the air thingy i tink muz use AA to gun it dw as if anyone can go wifout feelins. Anyway I dun have much feelins today but i will still write my feelins, i tink tat love is not only a boy girl thingy its a v important part of our lives as our families will always love us no matter what only we cant find a way to express it properly. For mi family love is v important as i m suffering from DMD which requires a lot care from them i am v grateful to them but jus cant express it by my mouth so i will write. I quite emotional now almost cryin again to others i seem v happy but they nv see the sad me n i nv want too as they dun any of them to worry abt mi. But for mi i wun not go into a relationship as i would rather suffer the hardship by myself as i dun want to b a burden to her so i will jus stay low n forget abt it as i tink she would b happier wif someone tat can take gd care of her n gim her happiness my feelins r gettin the better mi sry i got to stop cant write if not i will breakdown tats all. Gdbye to her n dun ever tok abt it to mi or else i will get angry or i duno wat i will do to u or myself. If u r curious find out who is it by observin mi. Tats all i feel so gd after lettin go of my feelins i m free now?Or i m lyin to myself n her.
Phrase 4 2day: Love is abt gimming n not takin wifout returnin it to ur loved ones
posted at 9:16 pm
Sunday, October 17, 2004
下雨时天空是否在哭泣呢?如果真是怎样.
我直想找到一个属于自己的雨伞.
posted at 12:16 pm
Saturday, October 16, 2004
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Friday, October 15, 2004

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Thursday, October 14, 2004
posted at 6:28 pm
Haha want to know more about ME AR??? Read closely then HOR
Me:
Name: Lim Shin Ming
Nick: Shin, Shinigami
Age: 20
Marital Status: Single aka Detach opp of Attach LOL. LAME...
Personal Style: Lame, Daydream
HMMM... What do I like haha
Anime Esp BLEACH
Cars Esp Mazda RX-8
Playing Computer Games
Gals, I m a normal guy OK
Singers: Jay, Lee Hom
Poetry
Choir
Nothing in Particular except for the following
When people stare at me till they freeze, cause I am on motorised wheelchair. HAHA din see before Huh?
Being made use of
Too much time but duno how to use
Loneliness
Hypocrites