Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Life of a DMD person
Morning
Every morning lay in bed waiting to be transfer onto the wheelchair. Then everything needed for my morning rise is laid out properly awaiting for me. My breakfast is prepared by my parents and everything they will see to it. Although it sound nice having everything done for you. But I don’t want any of this treatment I prefer to do everything by myself. Than I will go to the void deck to wait for my ride and again to be transfer to car seat so much carrying it sucks you know. My mother will drive me to school which is Nanyang Polytechnic.
School
I study IT in school where I get to meet a lot of friends who helped me greatly. They help me to take my things like books, buy lunch and even help me wash my urinal. We had a wonderful time even though we knew each others for 2 months only. And I had troubled them for two months already I feel bad about it. I do not know how to repay their kindness. With them around my life seem very vibrant as I spend most of my time with them. After a whole day of fun its time for me to say goodbye I always look forward to the next day when I get to meet them again. If anyone asks me if I had ever like any girls, I think till now there are two only. But I do not want to have relationships with any of them. As I think I will be a burden to them rather than making them happy. So for me friends are enough already. I think friends are people that I would not forget for my whole life.
Home
I get home very tired although I do not show it in school. As I do not want people to see me tired as it is very ugly. I will take my dinner quietly if I am very tired or else I talk about my school. And all my friends will all start appearing in my head maybe people will think I am crazy. I will turn on the computer with my parents help hate this treatment. I will login my internet chatting account which is MSN messenger and start finding friends to talk to as I find it difficult to stop talking. I will chat until my household want to sleep even though I do not want to sleep I still had to sleep.
Sleep
As I need someone to transfer me to bed. So I am learning to sleep on my wheelchair so that I can sleep anytime and anywhere I want too bad I do not know. So I lay in my bad staring at the ceiling while thinking of meaningful phrases and my friends think I am mad. Then my eyes will close slowly with all the thoughts in my head. That is why I had so many odd dreams about phrases flashing in front of me. Sometimes I dream of my friends during my sleep. And that I am cure of this illness and I get to pursuit my dreams all this seem so real that I wish I will dream on forever. My tears are dropping at this point of time so old still cry so stupid. How I wish all my dreams will be fulfill someday.
posted at 8:31 pm
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