Friday, October 29, 2004
I m utterly shocked by his death as his health condition his better us as hes not on wheelchair despite his age his name is freman. Too bad i haven noe him well to call him my bro, so sad tat he die b4 i becum gd frens wif him. I spoke to him 3 mths ago jus a few days b4 NYP orientation. Yet hes dead now y muz godofdeath do his job again i hate him. But godofdeath isnt tat cruel aft all, if we see death frm a diff view. "Death is a release frm sufferings, but leavin the loved ones in pain." Maybe aft all hes doin a kind deed to the dead, but ppl misinterpret it as an evil deed. Haiz.................................. Y MUZ HE DIE SO YOUNG WHEN HE HAVEN EXPERIENCE HOW FUN POLY IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe i shld do sth abt my personal life n not let her disappear frm my life b4 i let her noe abt my feelins. But i lack the courage to do so cos of my stupid F***ING (sry i used tat word cos i hate the F***ING illness)DMD as i tink i might b burden to her or she might not tok to mi anymore. ARHHHHHHHH i m stuck in a dilema i tink jus use hints rather dan jus go head on wif my feelins. muz slp liao
posted at 1:35 pm
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